The Cold Hard Truth

The reason why I don't post very much is because I feel like my life is not very exciting. I work, hang out with my awesome husband, and sometimes my family. That is about it. Every once in a while I get together with friends from work. Like tonight I am going over to my friend Ellen's. We are teaching ourselves needlepoint. Ok, I know, that is so boring right? Well, not to me. To me it is a creative outlet. Something I can make myself, and I have control over how it turns out. Of course, to get any good at it I have to practice. Practicing is always more fun in good company. I didn't make the one I posted- I'll have to take a picture and post once I have completed my first project. (But don't worry, I am so not into stitching the "home sweet home" with a picture of a little house on it. That is just not my style!

This is my life. Not very exciting. I don't really feel like I am moving one direction or the other right now, but I know that whole worlds can change in a split second. That is one of the biggest lessons I have learned from my current job. I work for an expert witness in the field of injury biomechanics. Basically, we are retained by attorneys who are either the plaintiff or defendant in injury lawsuits. I have seen some pretty horrific accidents just from everyday living. If you want to know more about it just check out the website here. Life changing quickly is something that has also been taught to me through the passing of a friend from the ward I grew up in. She was 25 years old, a newly wed, and just an amazing person. She had colon cancer. She blogged about the entire experience. It is incredibly moving and I reccomend reading it to anyone who needs a new perspective on life. Go to www.lemonademakers.blogspot.com. I just wish I had posted on her blog how she had impacted me, and all of that. Maybe this is my way of making up for it.

What I am trying to get at is that I have had the wrong perspective on life. Thinking that it isn't of importance because I am not doing anything "important". I have been so negative about the place I live, the job I work at, and the "lack" of things to do. Why? I can't say for sure, but I know it is something I am working on. The truth of the matter is that I can't compare myself to anyone else, and neither should you. I look at all of my friends blogs, and read about babies, and business, and all of these happenings. Then I think about my life and compare it. But there shouldn't be a comparison. I am not them, and they are not me. We each have our own set of challenges, and our own set of joys. And maybe I shouldn't be so afraid to share things that make me happy. I guess this whole time I have just been afraid of being judged. Silly to think that, but maybe not. But I am going to get over it because I know that my family and friends who read this love me for who I am. And if you don't, and you do judge me, then I guess I just don't need you in my life. And that is the cold hard truth.

So this Christmas Season, I want my friends and my family to know how much I care about them. Seriously, I really don't think anyone knows just how much they mean to me, and how each one of you have shaped and impacted my life. I hang on to every conversation, every laugh, every cry, every single experience. I love you all forever!